I really need a steady job, and I’m beginning to realize that it’s not just for the money either, even though that’s a crucial factor. I really want the security, and the absence of constant stress worrying about what position to take and following up on dozens of phone calls about interviews. After a year and a 1/2 doing the temporary thing I’m just tired of bouncing from one place to the next. I know I shouldn’t be so choosy and face the reality that I need to work, no matter where and for how long. But I stress easily, a bad habit, and I’m aching for the security of not having to worry about money. Every purchase is painful–I get over it better than I used to, but even not worrying when I know I should is painful.
Then again, an 8-5 job mon. thru fri. ate up a sizable chunk of my free time but I need to learn to handle it. I need to face reality but I want the stability of permanent employment. Doing something fun is just a bonus–but I’m also tired of having a droll job that I shuffle through just to get through the day. You can’t constantly be on alert for another opportunity within the company if you’re faced with that tedious monotony every day–it just saps you of strength, energy, and vitality. That’s why I didn’t get anywhere at Google or perservere in min. wage jobs in highschool. Your job has to have meaning and you need to feel good about what you’re doing. You also have to feel that you’re doing your job the best you can because it’s personally satisfying and makes you feel good about work. That’s what I’ve learned through all these jobs–it’s the afterglow at the end of a long day that serves as a signal about how your job is fitting into your life. A job is a job, working for others, but never neglect the pivotal fact that a business is based on people, and you’re one of them.
