Archive for June, 2008

Exterior Chi: my neighborhood

This will be the first of several reflective articles about my personal feng shui journey.

Exterior Chi: the universe is filled with an unseen force that interacts with our immediate environment creating energy patterns that then work together to shape our own energy. But before this energy can enter our homes and our lives it must first pass through several levels depending on its source. Each level or area affects its type and impact–for example the land surrounding your home and the neighborhood you live in.

My neighborhood is older and originally very community-based. There were new schools being built, senior living communities developed, wineries, parks, crisp and beautiful new homes that tactfully accentuated the rolling hillsides. Everyone knew their neighbors and my neighborhood was filled with young families who, even if we weren’t close, were at least friendly with one another. There’s the Medals with two young children–their mother is a pastry chef–, the Kahermanes with 2 girls and an older son, several families of immigrants next to the Medals, a kindly older couple on the corner, and a very nice gay couple in between who always invited us for BBQs. When we went Trick-or-Treating it was never a suprise as to who lived where and we never had to guess who the newcomers were. Turnover was low, at least at first. It was a nice place to grow up in with children on bikes frequently blocking traffic.

Now however a lot of isolated families keep to themselves, many prefer to associate with their own separate ethnic communities. Plus everyone works–most people are gone from 8am-6pm. 3 families we know still live on the street–the Medals, Kahermanes, and a nice couple on the opposite corner.

Crime began to riddle the neighborhood 5 years ago but has since ebbed. The housing market has plumetted and turnover is high. Houses are not well kept–many are run down with weed choked lawns. Low income extended families now comprise a majority of our neighbors like the family across the street who amazingly have as many cars as occupants. There aren’t a lot of pet owners–we’re the only ones who’ve kept ours for a significant period of time. Not a lot of people walk or jog and children are conspicuously absent. Most nights there is residential quiet punctuated by soft music or someone laughing. I’m thankful there’s a park nearby however where I can walk my dog and see children playing on the swing set.

All of these factors affect the chi that enters my home. It’s depressing, sad, lonely, and isolated energy reinvigorated only by the people who occupy the house. We try to keep a nice yard and most people around us do too but there is a pervading sense of abandonment and carelessness. Trash sometimes escapes garbage bins and I’m left to pick it up wondering why no one else volunteers. I like our neighborhood overall but I’m feel sharp nostalgia for the old days where I could go up to any house on the block and ask for an egg or a stick of butter.

Life Updates

For all those wondering…

There hasn’t been word yet about Pepi’s condition–we’re not sure how serious it is or how drastic the surgery needs to be. Dad and Babi got in a huge fight Father’s Day–it’s refreshing though to see him stand up to her for once. I understand her needs–that she wants her son to take care of her and that’s it’s customary for him to do so. But Dad has needs too–and an extremely pressing job. It’s not for me to say though–I just wish they had patience and didn’t demand so much. It’s a big shift for dad though and I’m happy he’s seeings things from a new angle.

I’m going to class in the evenings, dad works night shift for a few weeks because it’s the end of the project, mom’s starting to work Thurs/Fri so she can babysit Theo during the first part of the week, and Mike still isn’t working. Next week is my big trip to L.A.–I’m excited but nervous too. I want to fit in everything I possibly can but I don’t want to miss out on what’s really important. I don’t know when I’ll have time to pack–I haven’t called anyone back in the last week and I’ve been procrastinating and avoiding chat forums. Ah well–I’m going to go study XD

Important Quotes for Research

  1. a puppeteer must be able to “tell a thousand ancient stories from a single mouth, and create a million troops with ten fingers”

Paycheck Indulgence

This always happens when I get a new job—I spend the first 2 paychecks–usually the first one is necessity based like work clothes. Here’s what happened this time…

QT&E

1st paycheck:

  1. Anthropologie–2 pairs of work pants
  2. Amazon.com–3 books
  3. Tanglewood–took mom out to lunch

2nd paycheck:

  1. J.Crew–2 sweaters, 1 polo, 1 pair of shorts (I don’t own any ><) & 2 bracelets I’ve been drooling over for a year
  2. American Eagle–my 1 pair of flip flops for the year
  3. Macy’s Valley Fair: 1 brown pair of casual shoes (I don’t have any brown casual)

I’m very happy tho–not too guilt-stressed–I bought things I super needed and wanted. I haven’t seen anything good at J. Crew for a really long time and haven’t been able to afford it either. I needed shoes and taking mom out to lunch is always fun. Buying books is my one frivolous addiction I have whenever I’m feeling really happy/successful. Now that I thinkabout it tho I don’t think there’s a single article of clothing I’ve ever bought purely because I liked it…it’s always something I needed. I never shop blindly–I always have something in mind before I go in. (well, maybe 1 or 2 blouses for fun, mostly in college) lol

 

Chinese Medicine

When patients had symptoms of shang huo (rising heat), such as tooth pain, gingival swelling, and a sore throat, they sought ‘purging fire’ herbal medicine from the pharmacy or visited the dentist.

Chinese Superstitions/Beliefs

  • Cutting or trimming one’s nail at night is not encouraged as this practice will attract wandering spirits to one.
  • Dogs are believed to be able to see ghosts and spirits due to the fluid in their eyes. By applying this fluid over one’s eyes, one can actually see ghosts. This is how temple medium see ghosts.
  • When dogs howl for long periods at the wee hours of the mornings, this signifies death in the surrounding area.
  • Babies can also sense spirits. When they sense ‘unclean’ spirits, they will wail without reason.
  • When one dreams of teeth or snow, it means death of one’s parent.
  • Pointing at the moon will result in one’s ears to be cut off. (This belief appears to be most fictious, mainly because the result does not happen. However, parents continue to pass on this belief as they often use this story to scare their children. Jokingly, of course.)
  • In Chinese thought, the world is populated by a vast number of spirits, both good and evil. Such spirits include nature demons (kuei-shen), evil spirits or devils (oni), and ghosts (kui).
  • Evil spirits are believed to avoid light, so many rituals involving fire and light have developed, such as the use of bonfires, firecrackers, and torches. Evil spirits are also traditionally believed to travel in straight lines, which explains many curvy roads throughout China.
  •  Ghost month: Other activities include burying and releasing miniature paper boats and lanterns on water, which signifies “giving directions to the lost ghosts.”
  • They use the twelve zodiacal signs especially to determine the twenty-four seasons of the year. When the sun enters the 15th degree of Aquarius (February 5th) spring begins. When he enters Pisces (February 19th) the rainy season sets in; when he reaches the 15th degree of Pisces (March 5th) insects get excited; when he enters Aries (March 30th) the vernal equinox comes round, followed (April 5th) by the term called “bright and clear”; entering Taurus (April 20th) he brings fructifying rain and (May 5th) the beginning of summer; in Gemini (May 21st) he brings the two terms called “the grain is filling” and (June 6th) “the grain is in the ear”; in Cancer he brings the two terms summer solstice (June 21st) and little heat (July 7th); when the sun is in Leo (June 23rd) the great heat begins and (August 7th) autumn sets in; when the sun is in Virgo (August 23rd) heat is limited and (September 8th) white dew will fall; when the sun is in Libra (September 23rd) the autumnal equinox takes place and (October 8th) cold dew descends; when in Scorpio (October 23rd) frost falls and (November 7th) winter sets in; when in Sagittarius (November 22nd) little snow will fall, and (December 7th) great snow; when the sun is in Capricorn (December 22nd) the winter solstice takes place and (January 6th) little cold sets in; when the sun enters Aquarius (January 20th) great cold sets in; and thus the circle of the year is completed.
  • Jam Determination

    I’m determined to make jam this summer—I always thought that it was a super complicated process involving fancy, expensive machinery when actually it came be done at home in about 20 min. My mom has a deep pot for boiling water and a wide saucepan. We’ll have 2 full trees of apricots in about a week or two and one of plums.

    What I need:

    ~Glass jars w/lids

    ~Bottle grabber, magnet lid grabber

    Just simple tools to help you retrieve sanitized, super hot glass jars. Other than that all the recipe calls for is 3 cups to 1 cup sugar and spices like candied ginger if you like jam with a little zet. 3:1 makes about 1 8oz and 14oz jar or about 12oz total. This will come in handy when we have tons of ripe fruit sitting on the tree. I’d love to try this with berries too!

    Peter Rabbit Must Die Excerpts

    I had squirrels climbing a pole that held a bird feeder. I placed Vaseline on the pole, and enjoyed about 2 days watching the squirrels try (unsuccessfully) to climb the pole. I got quite a laugh, and they quickly gave up.

    Amazing what makes it to the front page of the Times these days isn’t it. We can kill half a million people without concern and are kind to vermin? This article is making me feel all warm and cozy inside

    I know I’m not helping here, I understand peoples frustrations with critters eating the veggies, but if your gardening you’re already aware that it’s irresistible for the animals and that you really can’t change that without changing something in yourself, assuming you care in the first place. If you can kill for a zuccini then go ahead. But if you find that its morally reprehensible, listen to yourself and honor that inner voice. Me? I’d go the zen route…”Change the way you look at things and the things you look at change.” Try growing the garden FOR them instead of in spite of them and see if nourishing your heart and spirit isn’t as vital as nourishing the body, which can survive very well on store bought zuccini anyway. Learn to share, even when someone or something else gets more than you.

    We mostly have problem with deer. I have found that…ummm…taking a leak at the edge of the garden has been very effective in keeping them off. Of course, this is not feasible around the vegetable garden, but…

    I buy those bamboo barbecue skewers at the grocery store and bbq store.

    Stick them in the ground with the pointy end “up” and pointing out toward where invading critters might make an entry to your garden. Place them about every 6″.
    I call this the Viet Cong vege trap. Believe me when those critters feel the working end of those bbq skewers, you won’t see them for a long time.

    I posted a sign in the backyard (positioned close to ground level) with a recipe for rabbit pie. I think the bunnies got the message. They have stopped gnawing through the stems of my hyacinth bean plants.

    Two Different Ways to Read Poetry

    1: Reader asks a series of cognitive questions and, through textual analysis, aims to resolve a problem in his mind. This is efferent reading, efferre (lat. “to carry away”) is what a reader takes from the information. It’s like archeology–the reader digging for information in search of truth and meaning.

    2: A poem’s evocation of the poet’s feelings–focused not on grammer or syntactical relations but on sensuous images. This is aesthetic reading where the reader is interested only in what is experienced during the reading, paying attention to associations, feelings, attitudes, and ideas that the words arouse within him and gaining a holistic understanding.

    “reader doesn’t pay attention to broad abstractions about jealousy and guilt and human tenderness that might be enunciated but to the actual moment-to-moment participation in Othello”

    In Chinese literary criticism, these 2 different reading styles are designanted by the concepts jie shi and du shi. (jie meaning to interpret)

    For example: what do you see in a painting? Do you notice composition, lighting, and the subjects? Or do you stand back and evaluate the overall feeling that it evokes?

    Chinese critics rarely approach a poem as an isolated, self-contained object. Discussions are embedded in the author’s life experience, the social-historical background of the author’s time, and most importantly the reader’s evaluative and emotive response to the work. Shi yan zhi–the founding program (kaishan gangling) of Chinese literary tradition. (poetry expresses intent and emotion)

     For the Chinese, however, the author is where the meaning comes from because his intention or emotion is the origin of his poetry. Text is no more than a medium for the author’s mind, and the meaning of a poem lies in the author’s mind inscribed in the text.  Thus to know the poet (time & person) is to know the meaning.

    On one hand, the poet, stirred by an emotion, expresses his feelings in words, thereby generating a poem. On the other hand, by reading the poem, the reader at the other end of the spectrum re-enacts the author’s feelings and thereby finds his own emotion expressed. fu shi yan zhi (“reciting poetry to express one’s intent/emotion”) and ting shi guan zhi (“hearing poetry recited to observe one’s intent/emotion”)

    shi yuan qing (“poetry stems from emotion”)

    In the Analects, Confucius exhorted his students:

    “Why don’t you study the Book of Poetry? Poetry can help to stimulate the imagination (xing), to observe social conditions (guan), to associate with others (qun), and to give expression to complaints (yuan). It teaches you to wait on your father at home and serve the sovereign at court. It also helps you learn the names of birds, beasts, plants and trees. (185)”

    Xing–to rise, exalt, evoke–this must happen first before the other functions can follow

    Although the life of an age may have passed beyond our view, we may often, through reading its literature, succeed in grasping the heart of it.

    Poetry is like ripples on a pond–the author expresses, writes words, the words flow to a reader who receives them and then works back to the feelings of the author, following the waves to their source.

    The Chinese language allows a poet to group words into phrases that are in harmony with one another regardless of semantics or grammar (w/no tense or pronouns present)

    “concealed expression” (hanxu) or pursuit of “the meaning beyond words” (yan wai zhi yi). Zhong Hong (fl. 483513) maintained that the best poetry is that in which “the words have ended and yet the meaning lingers on” (4) . Liu Xie preferred the quality of “concealment” (yin) to that of “ostensiveness” (xiu) in poetry

    Therefore, the miraculousness of their poetry lies in its transparent luminosity, which cannot be pieced together; it is like sound in the air, color in appearances, the moon in water, or an image in the mirror; it has limited words but unlimited meaning

    In Chinese literary criticism, the creative undertaking of the reader is also referred to as pin wei, or “to savor the flavor.” As the two words clearly indicate, the objective of reading is to apprehend the nuances of the emotive mood or atmosphere of a poem, and the way to do this is through a meditative and holistic comprehension.

    Gaston Bachelard proposed that the great function of poetry “is to give us back the situation of our dreams” that lie dormant in the depth of the unconscious. Reading poetry is contemplative, experiencial, and meditative.

    Make the banalities of life stimulating

    Besides having a guilt-trip about spending when I was younger I was also bothered by how ordinary the ordinary can be, and how the same banal routine can drag you down and make life seem depressing with no escape.

    So how to make the ordinary extraordinary? It’s as simple as a change of pace. Take a step outside the box, look at your room, your house, your life from every angle and inject a little mysticism and wimsy. Paint the walls with your imagination but don’t get lost in the bigger picture. Take things one step at a time, focus on one corner, one shelf, one piece of furniture. And don’t try to be Martha Stewart and confine yourself to the cookie-cutter ideal of ‘a perfect home’–be brave and target the most common of everyday objects. That way your life will truly be transformed, because it’s the basics that you use everyday that, once altered in a pleasing way, will have the greatest positive impact.

    It struck me when a designer said she didn’t stop at the fridge–the inside was arranged in a tasteful and fun way that reminded her of her goals and asthetics. How amazing would it be if I didn’t just buy a nice comforter and papered antique lamps–I would make my fridge a Dali painting, my pantry a Vermeer, my closet an adventurous Rousseau. Let nothing stand in your way–let your imagination know no limits!

    I’ve always wanted to try feng shui….I need to begin paying attention to the ways in which my life is affected by my environment.

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