Reminds me of that ABBA song lol But what else plagues my life recently? It’s strange–I seem to sail through these bubble-like pockets of laissez-faire, just going with the flow between important dates. I can’t even remember what happened last weekend–only that Monday was a start of a new work week and I had to get my hair cut Tuesday. Other than that it’s a blissful nothingness filled with self-indulgence–just doing what I want to do after work. It’s been really nice–but I know I’m just trying to ignore the Hellish storm that’s about to descend when I find out about school *sigh*
Money is a problem–and lately it’s slipped through my fingers like water >< There are so many things I have to buy that, when coupled with my Japanese dress indulgence (600$ and counting *wince*), leaves me with pennies. I’m spending about 300$ on my mom for her birthday (now that I’m older and can finally give back all the wonderful birthday memories of my childhood I go all out), spent 160$ on a haircut (I had to fix an awful highlight job my friend’s mom did ><), and have a 200$ ticket to pay (shhh…I’m going to class, ok?? lol). There are things I want to do but know I don’t have the funds for…a car wash, a new book, a tall tripod, and taking my mom out to dinner.
The scary part is I don’t know how I’d be paying for this if I lived on my own and had a monthly rent bill. So for now, I rely on my parents and spend what little margin I have on myself–the dress was a one time thing. I have to keep telling myself that XP And then there’s always Christmas to think about…*sigh* I need to get better about thoughtful basics and looking for deals.
But I’m still good to myself and I don’t care what other people say. I still want those Gucci sunglasses like mad, I had a drink at a chic bar after my haircut (I’m so good with downing martinis lol), and I bought a spray toner at my salon (who knew it came in a spray bottle?!?!?!). I pay 25$ a month for TVJapan to work on my Japanese (it’s a bi-monthly thing–I won’t renew it very often and I think I’ll start saving money for an expensive computer program like Rosetta Stone), treat myself to snacks at the store for work, and occassionally buy virtual things I never lay my hands on (weird, huh?) lol Like a manga site I sometimes read during downtimes at work…they have some beautiful stories. My bff called me a “brand whore” lolz…very true but I only buy 1 thing at a time and I have to save up for it until it becomes this worshipped museum piece. But I’m so lucky and grateful that I have the things I do and can save up for the things I want.
All in all it makes me very selfish—I seem self-centered and I won’t try to defend myself. But I need to be good to myself because before now I never was. It’s a new feeling and I love it!
